STRESS FACTORS

I can't construct paragraphs 'coz I'm too stressed and tired to do so. Thank God for bullets. Bullets with paragraphs. Huh? *Confused*--->too stressed not to feel confused!

* WORK WORK WORK - New department, new responsibilities, new timeframe, new everything. I seldom get enoough sleep. And when I do go to work early, I still go home late. So I decided to just come in late so I would feel less tired and worn out. I can't complain. I love pressure and challenges but not with strict "impossible" deadlines.

* VIRUS - I've had this ebola virus , eer..virus.. for 2 months now. 2 months!!! I have been drinking meds (antibiotics) for 2 weeks and it's still here. It's like a freakin' leech that is sucking the life out of me haha! Well, I never told my doctor that I never stopped smoking and I still drink ice cold water and loves eating Mais Con yelo. But the meds should have worked by now! Trivia: I hate getting sick because I hate drinking medicines because I can't swallow them.

* MY MOM - I love my Mom but she's extremely annoying! She nags the shit out of us, over clothes, laundry, dishwashing, smoking,etc.etc. And if there's nothing else to nag about, she finds 5 new reasons to start a new session! It drives us crazy. We sometimes unanimously shout at her to just sleep, peacefully, without opening her mouth. Sometimes she's smart enough to get the cue, but oftentimes it just drives her more mad...to nag. I dont know why but her voice'slike some kind of drug that whenever I hear it my heart pumps faster then I suddenly want to become violent and resistant to anything. Arrgh... I love my mom.

* MY ROOM - My dad always tell me that my room looks like it's being occupied by a boy. It's a total mess. Clothes are everywhere. Same with shoes, bags, accs, plastics. Sometimes I sleep with my bags and clothes beside me. Hehe! Here's a not so secret-secret: Once, I buried a Mcdonald's burger under a pile of clothes on my bed and discovered it 2 days later. Eew eew eew. Haha. We have a shoe cabinet but we seldom use it 'coz my shoes are all on the floor anyway. Well , I have a busy life. I seldom have time to fix things, clean my room and put my shoes back in the shoe cabinet. I know i know it's a lame excuse 'coz it doesn't take too much time to put everything back in their proper places, but it is for me! Haha. It's good that we have a hired help who cleans my room every 2 weeks. Sometimes, when I'm not in the mood to shove things on the chair beside my bed, I just crash and sleep in my brother's room. Hehe. It stresses me out coz if I can just put everything in order with just one snap of a finger ..then life would be easssy.:)

*LOVELIFE - it's so stressful I don't even know where to begin with. She's in Dubai, I am here. She's hostile and I'm a touchy affectionate person. She's chasing after her dreams, I am chasing after her, and no one's chasing me. Just figure it out. It's stressful really.

* FRIENDS - I want to see my friends. Spend time with them, laugh with them and laugh at them. But I'm too tired and worn out to even see them. I now go home at around noon every Saturdays. When I get home I stall and sit infront of the pc to check some stuffs which leads me to sleeping at around 3 pm. I will then wake up (if ever I wake up that seldom happens coz usually I go into comatose) way past midnight. That just gives me Sunday to do normal stuffs. Nobody goes out on Sundays. It sucks.

* SHOPPING - Whether online or in the mall, it stresses me as much as it excites and comforts me. I too shop on a budget and it sucks seeing things that are so over my allotment. This is where the line "So near yet so far" applies. You can't have all the cake you want to eat in one sitting. Still...shopping is my theraphy. As the saying goes (as I continue to associate shopping with love)... you always come back to the things that hurt you. I love shopping!

* MY BOSS - He's great, smart (over the top smart), strategic, analytical and most of all an Excel guru. He's also nice and funny. But I don't know why he stresses me out this much (not as much as my previous boss Claire whom I also love). He's not yet 30 but he already achieved a lot of things. I also want that (which stresses me again grr)! Hahaha. Bottomline is he's great and in our previos meeting he told me that he wants me to learn a lot so that when I finally decide to venture into another opportunity I would have enough bullets in my gun. I appreciate that he only wants the best for and of me and that he wants me to be great, excellent, superb...that's why I'm this stressed.

* CONSTIPATION - or colon cancer after a few years. I hope not! Well, I've got all the symptoms. I've always had this love-hate relationship with my umm, excretory system. I have a HUGE intestinal problem. Sometimes it cooperates for a few days or months, then there are also days where I almost believe its got it's own mind. It's the only thing that scares me in this lifetime because I can't force it to (you know) unleash its contained toxins even if I sit on the toilet for a whole day. Some people or almost everyone can do that. But not me. The worse constipation I ever went through was last May during our Bohol-Singapore trip. In summary, I didn't "shit" for almost 1 week. And I ate A LOT. It's stressful.

* MY BIRTHDAY - It's near! Meaning, I'd again get a year older...which means I'n not getting any younger..which means I have to pull myself together and start living my dreams. Well, I am. But there's still a lot more to execute. And I'm not even halfway yet. There's still a lot of things I want to do, like skydive. Haha. Or get paid blogging. Hahahahaha! Well, unlike other people I knew, know or not know, I don't want a family. NOT YET. or not ever. Other people when they get to this stage and age (25 and above) panic, acting like they're being left by the shiny shiny train of marriage and kids. Don't stress friends. It will come to you. But not me, I love my life or live my love..I love you! Hahaha! MICH, YOU SAID WE'LL CELEBRATE MY BDAY for 9 DAYS. Let's do it!!! Hahaha:P

I love LIFEHOUSE!!!

Concert starts at 8 pm. Got to the Coliseum and met my sister there at around 7:45.. Haha! Well show didn't start 'til around 9 pm. I was sooo hungry when I got there so I bought Jamaican Patties (Pinatubo flavor and it's addicting!) to munch on. Our area (though it's cheap) was fine. We sitted at the right wing so we could be closer to the stage and there's a huge screen at the side. I thought it's gonna be an empty arena but at 8:15 people started to pour in then I started to get excited! Haha! They were supposed to have a front act but I was suprised that when the lights came on it was already them on the stage! *Shrieks* And for a little trivia, they were staying at Discovery Suites! aaargh!!! Sayang! Anyway, it was not so so so spectacular but it was worth it! And the show was great! They sung Hanging by a Moment, Spin, Take me away, First time, Broken (or was it Storm) and other new songs. Walang jologs!!! Hehehe.







Alicia Keys and Avril's next!!!

Favorite Songs: WHERE I STOOD

..from One Tree Hill season 5. I love this song. I makes me smile...and sad...and miss you more. :c

Song lyrics | Where I Stood lyrics

50 Beauty Commandments

As I was browsing through I think my 100th site I came across this 50 beauty tips. This is not only for women (although most of them are) but this applies to everyone. Not bad if you want to cut your horse race to ultra maturity or simply put: old age, meaning sagging skin, wrinkles, dark spots, you know. You can choose not be too vain and religiously follow all 50 but you can at least put some on mind. It will help you feel more youthful and glowing inside.
Read on...
1. I will keep all my makeup sponges clean and crud-free. After all, sponges are for putting on makeup, not mud.

2. I will keep my eyebrows groomed. Stubble is sexy on Italian men, not my brow bone.

3. I will use conditioner on my hair.

4. I will use pore strips to keep my nose whitehead-free.

5. I will get a pedicure regularly. I don’t want to look like a troll.

6. I will trim my nose hairs. Enough said.

7. I will not prick my zits. This will eventually cause scars.

8. I will throw out my old makeup. If it smells like rotten fruit, it goes into the trash.

9. I will not put makeup on while driving. It will cause uneven makeup application and possible automobile accidents.

10. I will not use face powder that is too white for my face. I am not a Japanese Kabuki actor

11. I will have my bigote removed (In case I even come out on TV in full close up.)

12. I will get a hot oil when I need one. It’s good for the hair, it’s good for the soul.

13. I will wash and clean my hair brushes.

14. I will get a haircut every 4 to 5 weeks. I don’t want to look like an overgrown fern.

15. I will exfoliate! I do not want to be a scaly reptile.

16. I will not smoke and put on hair spray at the same time. Hair spray is so eighties, really.

17. I will put on moisturizer every night.

18. I will use sunblock even when I’m not at the beach. Rays today, raisins tomorrow.

19. I will not stop using that chocolate brown/mauve/coral lipstick from the mid-nineties.

20. I will not match my eyeshadow with my clothes.

21. I will stop wearing pink foundation. Caladryl is for itches, not for the face.

22. I will start experimenting with new makeup styles.

23. I will keep my makeup kit neat and organized.

24. I will experiment with nail colors other than beige.

25. I will shave or wax my legs when I wear a skirt or shorts.

26. I will get a bikini wax if I have to wear a bikini or swimsuit.

27. I will not straighten/curl/dye my hair every month. Stressed hair is ugly hair.

28. I will use eye cream.

29. I will immediately remove chipped nail polish.

30. I will not sleep with makeup on. Just think of the pillows and bed sheets the morning after.

31. I will exfoliate my lips and use lip balm regularly.

32. I will keep hand sanitizer handy all the time.

33. I will always have a pack of tissues with me.

34. I will stop buying the same shade of lipstick.

35. I will not wear orange eyeshadow.

36. I will buy a new bath lily or loofah when the old one looks like a dead rat.

37. I will go to the spa at least once before I’m 50.

38. I will have my teeth cleaned every six months.

39. I will clean my makeup brushes every two weeks and replace them when they fall apart.

40. I will moisturize my elbows.

41. I will stop wearing tri-color eye shadow.

42. I will exfoliate and moisturize my feet.

43. I will not wear too-thick makeup.

44. I will clean my ears at least four times a week.

45. I will consult a recent magazine to see if my makeup/hairstyle/clothes are still current.

46. I will not feel insecure because I do not look like Laetitia Casta.

47. I will not make lait the next girl because she looks better than me.

48. I will be beautiful to feel good for myself, not to please other people.

49. I will not put mashed fruits and masticated vegetables on my face.

50. I will learn to laugh at myself when I get too vain.

A Love Tragedy

Have you ever cried so much that you swear you could actually feel your heart literally break into pieces? Doing so, you have your hand over your chest just to keep it from falling apart out of pain, & hurt, & frustration, disappointment and helplessness? I have. I’ve done monologues (while crying), and I swore, and I cursed, and I asked for strength. You start feeling better as you play adrenaline pumping happy songs, then one song plays..and every memory, every feeling & love comes rushing back and it knocks you out again from sanity and insanity. It then starts all over again…the crying. You then try to surround yourself with familiar faces, wishing and believing you’d forget. For sometime, you do as you drown yourself with fake smiles & laughter. But as hours pass, you again fall into a blackhole. Even with all the familiar happy faces around you, you still feel alone and isolated. It’s like you’re on your own invisible bubble that no one can pop. You continue smiling and laughing because that's what they expect you to do, to forget and move on. But then when you’ve given your life to someone, built your plans around them, offered all of your time, and shared so much, IT’S NEVER EASY. It’s hard as hell. You know someday, in someway, you’d get through..but it’s gonna be a long and painful ride.

Randomly, memories flashes back in collages. It hurts again & you gasp for air everytime. You breathe just to know you’re gonna be okay. When you’ve given so much to someone, every song, every place, every scent that distinctively connects you with that person makes you stop on your tracks and grieve again. Until you find yourself actually search for that distinct smell, or song, or place just to feel that person again. But in this parallel universe, love’s irony is that when you seek..that’s when you’ll not find. You stand in that one corner you’d expect to see that person pass by..and they never do. Then one day, you just stop searching and that’s the time when you see them everywhere…expected or unexpected. Suddenly, you realize you’ve already stopped searching and waiting… for the first time, you feel free. You then smile—‘coz that’s when you’ve finally let go. #

BISYO

the result of my idleness...

nakakangawit…

tumayo ng 3 oras,

sa kanto.

Ubos na ang baga sa kahihithit

ng sigarilyo.

Tila walang katapusan--

ang pagsindi.

Ayokong tigilan,

ang paghithit at paghihintay.

3 oras pa lang,

idagdag pa sa 3 taon na bawat

araw kong itinayo rito.

Sa walang sawang pag-abang,

sa iyong sana’y pagbabalik.

Ngunit tulad ng mga taong iyon

di na nga siguro mangyayari

ang aking inaasam,

na muling malasahan ang tamis…

at pait…

ng iyong mga labi.

Sabik sa panghihinang tanging ang

kamay mo lamang ang

nakapagdudulot.

Naubos na ang panahon—

ubos na rin ang mga abo.

Nakakapagod palang tahakin

ang ginawa mong daanan.

Paikot-ikot. Paikot-ikot—

iisang direksyon lang naman…

pabalik lamang sa’yo.

Ubos na ang mga upos.

Siguro nga’y di ka na darating pa,

At kailangan ko ng tuluyang

lisanin, ang kantong ito.

Tumalikod…magsisimula na akong lumakad.

Papalayo rito, Papalayo sa iyo.

At hinding-hindi na akong…

Lilingon pang muli. #aisa#

My Favorite Online Store: NITA CLOTHING

I was browsing through millions (okay maybe thousands) of multiply shops when I came across NITA CLOTHING. I did my usual routine of spot checking the photos first to see if there's anything that'll interest me. Then I noticed that the model, looks somewhat familiar. I then discovered that she is indeed familiar, she's my kabarkada in St. Scho in Grade School. Hehe! I also attended a officemate's wedding last March of 2007 and discovered that they are the ones who tailored her wedding gown and the whole entourages'! Small world hehe. Anyway, the clothes are super pretty (can't think of a better term) , fashionable and can be a staple to anyone's wardrobe. They have casual dresses, formal dresses and tops. I wanted to keep this to myself coz I'm sure soon everything will be sold out in a day but I decided to share it anyway since I want to support my friend. Hehe! Here are the tops I ordered! And I'm so excited to wear them!

Gaynor top for only P398!


Sonia cropped jacket (i ordered BLACK) for only P388!



They make customized clothes, so if ever you don't fit in their standard sizes which are O to 2 (XS-L) you could just send them your measurements and they'll make it for you. They also have a size chart in their website so you don't have to ask for the measurements.

Here are the others I love:

Christina bolero - P368


Felice - P388


Joyce top - P428 (I wanted this in lt. gray but the cloth is already unavailable:c )


Conie yellow top -P458 ; Desiree top - P328


Ria top - P359 ; Judith top - P388


Helena Dress - P1599 ; Myrene shirt dress - P498


These clothes are priced cheap if you compare it with other online shops who would probably sell the jackets for P650, the tops for P700 and the dresses for P800. So these are (in a shopper's point of view) indeed: gold. Haha!

Again, online shopping at it's finest. NITA is the perfect place to shop for office clothes or casual wear coz aside from the fab clothes they also provide everyone the best shopping experience and deals you could ever wish for! Thanks Carla and Krisna! Miss you.:)

Current Fashion Craze: GLADIATOR SANDALS

This reminds me of Jesus A LOT. After all this was the trend during His time (hehe). Reminds me too of the Spartans, Remember? From that hot movie 300? Who would ever think it will become a fashion trend of today. The first persons I think I saw wearing this was Mary Kate & Ashley Olsen. They both debuted the heeled and flat knee-high type, which I thought at that time was ridiculous. Only they can pull that off. Here's a pic of them wearing their oh so ferosh knee-high flat CHANEL sandals and Azzedine Alaia heeled gladiator boots:

I found something similar from Ichigo (ichigoshoes.multiply.com) for P1,450.

These are totally cute, but for me it's overkill. I would not wear this at all, except for maybe a costume party. But then there are certain people who would look great, shockingly inspirational and attention worthy wearing this.

On the other hand, these I would love love love to wear:


I found something similar to what Fergie's wearing from pillfootwear.multiply.com for P780.:)

This is my favorite so far! It's an ISABEL MARANT glads worn by Kirsten Dunst. If only I could find something similar to this. :c

Ashley, Vanessa and Kirsten in glads.

Here's my local finds:

Gladiator sandals from Ichigoshoes all P680. (Available in other colors)


from Ichigoshoes for P500.


(left) from trunkshow for P750; Available in gold and white.

Lanvin gladiators

from mycabinetonline.multiply.com for P550
from pillfootwear for P700+

(L) Coach inspired from sugarndspice24.multiply.com (available in other colors)
(r) Hayden wearing an original Coach glads.


You may also find fab affordable gladiator sandals in Schu, PRP and Janylin. But it's definitely cheaper to buy online. Most glads online are priced below P1K:) As for me, here's my first gladiator buy which I absoluuutely fabulously love!


*Taro gladiator sandals from Ichigoshoes.

I'm now scouting for my next buy which I will post soon. Stay tuned!:)

@pictures from www.shoebunny.com

Music is LOVE

I am a certified music junkie. I remember when I was still in grade school when tape/cassette recorders are still the Ipods of today, I would buy (more of hoard) blank tapes so I could record my favorite songs on the radio. I would save money just to be able to buy a 120-minute tape for P40-P60. There's still no Limewire or Frostwire or usb's, mp3s or ipods then. So it's either you buy an original tape of your favorite band from any music store or stand by the radio all day to be able to catch your favorite song and record it, using your blank tapes. Hehe. I remember this one day I acted sick just to skip school and record the Top 20 songs from LSFM. Hahaha!!! During that time the popular songs are "Pls. forgive me", "All for One" (from the 3 musketeers movie), "Til death do us part", OMG!!! And I would try to record it without the Dj's voice so imagine my frustration whenever the DJ keeps on blabbing 'til the songs intro. Haha. I would try to edit it by covering unwanted noises by blank sounds. Heehee. There are albums I bought and spent my hard-saved P250 for like Boyzone, Spice Girls (Spiceworld album), Hanson, and other cheesy bands. Well as for BSB and N'sync, my bro got it all covered! He bought them. Haha. I even bought a tape, I think it's more of a compilation of songs, with my ex-fave song DYING INSIDE! And we would dance (REALLY) while playing it over and over again. Oh yeah we loved Pop!!! and boybands AND girlbands. That's until my dad made me listen to his newly purchased No Doubt tape (my dad's a rocker, Led Zeppelin, Black Sabbath, Pink Floyd type of rocker). After that, I fell in love with Alternative...and joyously got over POP. I then bought more tapes but now of great musicians like Alanis Morissette, Gin Blossoms, Hootie and the Blowfish, etc. etc. They're still my favorite bands/musicians until now. :) After that is the CD player days, wherein I'll buy along Dapitan (UST) mp3 compilations then a little later came the Imesh, LImewire days.

So fastforward to now, I am sooo thankful the cassette tape era has gone kapootz. Although I still have my 13-year old cassette recorder. :) And it's still working! with a little wire twitching that is. And I'm so lovin' the net (where I could just download songs anytime) and my little Samsung mp3 player (with voice recorder! hehe) from Algene.:) Now our PC's in near crashing and constant complaining of low memory disk space because of the songs in it (and pictures hehe). BUT, I still miss my tapes. And I still smile (and laugh a little) whenever I remember my "Bryan Adam" days. When I have to literally sit beside my radio just to wait for any station to play my favorite songs. Now I can do it in one click of the mouse. Life maybe easier today but I have been more passionate with music before. And today I'm not anymore the person to ask about the latest tunes. Algene always ask me what's new on the airwaves. But she's always more aware of it than me. Haha! I am more of the 95's-00's era. My mp3 contains mostly songs from that time. And most of my favorite songs and bands and musicians are from that timespan. There are certain bands and musicians I love like: Alanis, U2, Incubus, Lifehouse and GooGooDolls. They are the chosen few whom I love every song they make. And for others, it's just some kind of a random thing. There are just certain songs I love for every era and genre.

Music is an avenue for me, a gateway of my emotions. The only type of music that could most likely make my heart skip or sink are sentimental ones or soft alternatives. Songs from Dashboard or Splender are songs I would most likely listen to when I'm on the road going to somewhere far with some scenic view by the window. These are songs I would listen to when I'm heartbroken, sad, frustrated, disappointed, or full of angst. Music is a powerful force. They could make me happy in a heartbeat or sad (sad=emo haha) with one snap of a finger. It can make me smile on a sad day or cry when i just can't let my emotions go. Music can also make and break a good tv or movie scene. When I was in 3rd year HS I chose to become a musical director in our class play than be part of the cast. I saw myself enjoying more picking out songs for every scene, than acting. It excited me more.

Everyday I discover new tunes to listen to. My collection keeps growing and growing. It's official. I'm in love with MUSIC.

Super crazy for this GIRL.

It has been 2 years. More than 2 years. And we're still here. :) Same feelings, same sparks, same love, same YOU.








CRAZY FOR THIS GIRL (by Evan and Jaron)
She rolls the window down
And she, talks over the sound
Of the cars that pass us by
And I don't know why
But she's changed my mind.

[Chorus:]
Would you look at her
She looks at me
She's got me thinking about her constantly
But she don't know how I feel
And as she carries on without a doubt
I wonder if she's figured out
I'm crazy for this girl.

She was the one to hold me
The night the sky fell down.
And what was I thinking when,
The world didn't end.
Why didn't I know what I know now.

[Chorus]

Right now
Face to face
All my fears
Pushed aside
And right now
I'm ready to spend the rest of my life
With you.

LIFEHOUSE Live in Araneta on July 26

Song lyrics | Everything lyrics
I'm super excited and I can't contain it! I've been looking for someone to go with me since my sister backed out, but managed to woo her into coming with me again. So I guess we're off to Araneta on Sat! I just have to buy tickets. Hehe. Anyway, I've been waiting for Lifehouse to come here in the Philly. After I missed the Incubus concert, I promised that I wouldn't let a next good bands concert slip through my hands. So one day while I was passing by Farmer's Cubao (hahaha! I actually was there) imagine my excitement when I saw the Lifehouse concert poster! I even took a picture of it. Haha! Lifehouse has been one of my all-time favorite bands. Not just because I've memorized almost all their songs, but because they write and make great music that through time have also evolved with me. The first Lifehouse house I heard and became my all-time fave is "Hanging by a Moment". I don't know but I believe I'm the first person to ever like that song! haha! I was still in high school then. In the many phases of my life there's a certain Lifehouse song I could associate with it. When I was still a high school stud in St. Scho it was "Hanging by a Moment", when I was in college (during my crazy UST life with Dinah) it was "Sick Cycle Carousel" "Breathing & "Spin", 2 years ago when I fell in love with a boy (as in boy 'coz he's 5 years younger than me) it was "Blind" & "You and Me", and now with Algene it's "First Time", "Everything" and "Take me Away". They still have a lot songs which I'm super in love with. Before, I actually thought Jason Wade's voice sounds a lot like Creeds vocalists' voice! Who would ever think a low magnificent voice could come from a boy-next-door looking guy! Their songs might sound a little alike but because each song reflects a certain emotion, stark, positively negative, it becomes distinctively indifferent. Lifehouse is a band that touch people's hearts (including mine!) with their gift of melody and lyrics. I'm certain I will be a big fan of theirs for a LOOONG time.:)

Pier 6th : Missing Lots part 1

I miss my friends. There are a lot of things (actually it's mostly sleeping) going on in my life right now that I never get to see them anymore. I want to start hating my job (night shift sucks!!!)coz it's getting in the way of my weekend fun but then of course I can't 'coz it's my source of my shopping fund and my savings. So then again back to my friends. As I've said I missed them. And as much as I explain to them that my schedule is hell, there are some who would never understand. I may be paranoid but there are people I feel I'm drifting away from. And if they are reading this, I wanna tell them that despite of our lack of bonding time, I'm still a friend who would always be there for them. And that I'm still the same person they loved or still love. I realize there are so much I'm missing. I miss going out on weekends, just wasting away and getting drunk and lost in booze but most especially from stories exchanged. I miss our pier 6th 24/7 tambay nights when we will just sit ALLLL night on the sidestreet laughing at each other and just do plain nothing up until we see the sunrise and the street lamps go off. After that when we wake up (which would be around late afternoon) we again go out on the street and hangout again. How I miss those days. But since then a lot happened. People left, started a family, had adorable babies, worked and got busy with other things (like me). Sometimes I wish I live in Q.C. so I could be closer to them and I could visit them anytime and not be in this "ghost town" that is an hour away. Sometimes I wish, time would just freeze. So we'd never have to grow up and think of the future and just be the careless youths we were. But then at one time or another time catches up on us and we have no choice but to move on. And as my bestfriend and I would always say, we can't just stagnate at one place. I don't know if he already forgot that conversation we had because right now I don't know if he understands that this is part of me not stagnating in one place. But then I hope he's supporting me just as much as I would support him in all he does and I'm super proud of him. I would forever remember the tree house and the Magandang Gabi Bayan Halloween special marathon. I would never forget the food trip sessions and the taguan ng yosi. I would never forget the ultimate party place AND people that is 6th avenue. We may never relive everything again and be present in one place and time, but we could sure keep the memories, the smiles, laughters and the genuine friendship we all shared.

MERCHETING: my life confusion.

It has been crazy crazy crazy in our office lately. It has been going on for the last few months, specifically since November last year. It's the nightmare that's being called "U.S. Recession" so it directly caused a scar to the company I'm currently in by a term that is nightmareish than recession called "RETRENCHMENT". I have been ready since March to be called off anytime. The first hit was last November, and the second last May. In summary, from 16 people in our department (the ever popularly hated Merchandising Dept.) it was trimmed down to 5. Most of the people that were let go are the people I was close to. People whom I had yosi breaks with, laughing trips, food trips, and more. SO it really broke my enthusiasm when they left since I had no one to make chika with, or laughing trips with. This resulted to me being sleeeepy everyday that once I even got caught by my boss, in which she apologized quickly for waking me up. HAHA! Then there are those occassional rants of me not wanting to go to work. I'm too bored and sleepy and tired. Don't get me wrong. The "company" is the perfect company anyone could ever have in terms of compensation. Everyday we even have free buffet food, our own nescafe vending machine and a softdrinks dispenser! And the bestof 'em all, DRINKING WATER's FREE!!! Sorry, if it sounds shallow but in my previous job before my current we had to pay for our drinking water and there are even times we experience scarcity which super sucks. So anyway, it's a company that pays good moolah plus perks without too much stress. Until recently. Where every manager's meeting or staff meeting makes us or them "praning" that they might be talking of another round of retrenchment WHICH i would be most willing to volunteer myself to since the sep pay is HUGE (i need it for Sing!).

So fastforward to now, our little department that was Merchandising, was divided. We'd like to believe, DISSOLVED. I was transferred to the Marketing Department and the other half is now called the ST queens (or Sourcing Team Depratment). Segway: It's the only company I know wherein we could come up with our own department and titles! (Since in the US they're more after the salary than the job title as my boss said). So last friday I had a meeting with my new boss. After the meeting, my head was spinning so fast I nearly toppled over (kiddin'). We discussed my new role (which is HUGE!) and our projects. I am super excited..and scared. I think this is the job that will really push my abilities and capabilities to the limit. My goal is to save our website, to increase sales, to analyze, monitor, and convert data to plans and implement them. I am on my own! In my previous jobs I always have someone telling me what to do. They are challenging but I don't always have the last say. This however, will surely test all of my management and marketing skills since the company is in it's make or break stage. And that is besides the fact that I've always wanted to be in a marketing department.

But then, the problem is I've also been applying for jobs in Dubai. That's where my heart is. So with this new event in my career I now find myself in a dilemma. I have a few interviews lined up. What if I get accepted? I've been waiting for a year now for the perfect gateway to dubai. And before my talk with my new boss I've decided to just go for any job there that is likely appealing then just transfer to a better company there after a year or two. So now, I'm confused. I' have to weigh things and choose between: time or more experience or in a bigger lens LOVE or CAREER. So with this I;ve decided to lift everything to God, my plans, life, dreams, and my heart. I'm not in control anymore. I\ve always believed that if something is meant for you, the universe will conspire just to be able to give it to you. And if you don't get something no matter how hard you try it's perfectly normal to feel frustrated or disappointed sometimes. It's human-nature. But never never dwell on the negativity because it will just make you more immobile. In my life, in the future I know God has a plan for me. It may still be vague for now but I know time will reveal (as the song goes). All things good or bad happens for a reason. And the driving force that should be making you smile everyday inspite of the failures or confusion is FAITH. Faith saves.

My Closet: *bow*

I was arranging my closet one day and decided to take a picture of my shoes and some accessories.

* my eyewear, bangles, bracelets, watches, earrings, brooches, etc. etc.
* some of our bags. Where's the blue one?!

* and some of our shoes... some. some. some. Some I know..is a lot.

* some of my necklaces

I know all of them by heart and I know when one's missing. Haha. Which reminds me, I have to dispose some of these. Hello ebay!

X-Files of a: SHOPPINGERA

So here's my follow-up blog! I would like to share with all of you my current addiction: online/internet shopping. I first discovered online shopping a year ago. I started looking at Ebay while I'm still working at Robinson's Department Store as an Asst. Category Officer. The work is toxic, we're required to dress-up everyday, and our pay sucks. I'm guilty, I browse Ebay while I'm at work, it makes me less bored and stressed. My first purchase from Ebay is a pair of cute brown shoes (with ribbon haha). I really didn't expect a super nice shoes since I only bought it for P200. But to my amazement, it did look as new! And shiny, and smells nice too. Hehe. So that's my first...and the rest was history! Almost 75% of my clothes are from online shopping. Haha! When I transferred to Branders that's when my addiction to Multiply shopping started. Since I'm now earning more than what I earn in Rob, I now have more kaching (!) to spend. Haha! But it's better for me since most payments are thru Gcash or bank deposit, I'm not required to use a credit card. In malls, one is more tempted to purchase through cards which in the end might pile up to thousands in bills. So here I'll share with you just some of the super fab items I purchased through online shopping!!!

1.) Designer inspired (Chanel 2.55) jumbo flap from Iconatics.multiply.com which I was able to buy for less than a thousand bucks. I also have this in silver chains! I also was able to buy from them a white one for just P150. I love Justine and Renah! They also have more bags ala Hermes, Balenciaga, LVs,etc.etc. It's a site for bag hags. :)
2.) One of my favorite sellers in ebay and multiply is Gwengshionista! It is from her I'm able to buy signatured clothes at a fraction of the original price! Here's what I recently bought from her for P650. It's a Derek Heart dress and I had to fight for it haha so many bidders.

3.) I'm never really a fan of expensive original signature bags. So whenever I see one that's exactly like the original and cheap too, I buy it. Hehe! Why buy a bag worth P60K when you can buy this! A stam bag I bought in ebay (from Filipina, thanks sis!) for P500. It is pre-owned but still looks perfect. Comes with a gold chain too.
Here's a Dior replica I bought from Rowena of Closetbargain for P600!

4) Mycabinetonline.multiply.com is one of my favorite shops because aside from the super fab items they sell, they also accept PAYPAL! Uh-oh now I could use credit cards in online shopping. Haha. Here are just some items I bought from sis Rollet.:)
T-strap sandals for P680, it's an Old Navy replica. Cute!Korean bubble top for P400. :)Red flats for P400! Original price is P800.And cute satin mini-dress that's perfect for night-outs for P400.:)

5) In my early multiply days there's one store that makes me drool whenever I open their page and it's because of the super nice items they sell. It's thepurchaser.multiply.com... I was able to buy a Botkier inspired bag from them (thanks Sab!) and it's even nicer in actual. And P900 is super worth it!
6.) I'm in love with the color yellow and there's one site where I was able to buy a dainty yellow dress I used for a summer outing with my family. It's super cute for P450! (fashionpill.multiply.com)7.) Charlotte Russe, Wetseal and F21 statement shirts are usually priced at P1000+. But in ebay I was able to buy a Wetseal glittered print "Excuse Me I'm VIP Shirt" for P600 and in multiply a yellow "Don't you wish your girlfriend was hot like me" shirt for P500!!! It's super comfy. I love it!8.) I love accessories and a lot of people could attest to that. Especially since I worked as an Asst. Category Officer for Mens and Ladies Accessories for Robinsons Department Store. I have a LOT of necklaces (freebies from Rob and my personal purchases), bangles, bracelets and earrings. My favorite place to shop for accs is in 168 where I'm able to buy 3 sets of earrings for P100. But online, I only have one place where I shop for accs and that's: iamgirlie.multiply.com!!!
Here's just one item I purchased last summer, I'll post the other pics soon.:)*rainbow wooden bangles from iamgirlie. One set for P200.*kidada wrap inspired bracelets from peachesontop.multiply.com. P200 each. You could choose from leather braided bands, satin braided chord, or flat chord bands. You could choose from a list of charms. It could be mixed silver and bronze charms. I chose mixed!:) So cute!* Fab necklaces from Qonline.com... All priced from P180-250 only!:)* gold heart neckalce from stellar01.multiply.com amde by Chynna Ortaleza. Super nice items and affordable too.:)

9.) I usually buy jeans at PRP or the mall because it's too risky for me to buy those online (since I usually have a hard time finding one that fits me best). So when I bought a black skinny at Blingfinds.multiply.com I'm uber delighted that it fits perfectly! And the fabric is not chipipay or whatever. For P600 it's soo worth it. I can't find anything that's close to it.
10.) My latest buy is a pair of Old Navy skimmers from ebay which I totally love! I have been looking for a perfect pair that is not that expensive, so when i saw this gray and green skimmers for P350 (P350!!!) I bought it right away!

There's a lot of gold (fashion gold!) that is yet to be discovered. I would post more of my fashion finds/buys tomorrow. There are days wherein I am amazed by how cheap my whole wardrobe ensemble is. One time I computed my wardrobe for the day and it only amounted to P1,200! Including my bottom, top, shoes and bag. I am a bargain fairy! Hahaha! Oh well, one can wear a P3K worth of Lacoste poloshirt and still seem like they bought it for P300 in Greenhills.
It is just how you wear them and the confidence you exude even if you're wearing a P50 top from ukay-ukay. Depending on your character and attitude, you could wear one and still look like a million bucks.:)